What’s holding me back? Fears, insecurities. Those negative, critical voices. I can’t get focused enough to follow through. Yet I’m busy all the time and take on too many projects that are such a waste of time. I “allow” myself to get sidetracked instead of “allowing” my creative juices to flow…
(B.J.E.)
Does this sound familiar? Read on…
Recently I completed teaching a powerful, evocative webinar/teleclass experience called “Standing in the HeartSong of the Earth.”
The exceptional group of people in this class was studying the use of the Card Deck of the Sidhe. The process lends itself so well to tapping! We directed the profound insights of the cards in several ways, and I want to share with you one person’s experience.
How can I open myself to deeper creative self expression? This was the question for one session.
This is how Brittany J Ellis described the problem that she wanted help with:
I want to express myself creatively. I know I have something meaningful to share. The research is done and I’m on the threshold of a rough draft of a book project I can’t complete. (Or, maybe I’m in the waiting room of the lobby of that threshold.)
I feel so stuck and burned out right now. I haven’t written much in the past decade and feel so ashamed. In the past, I written lots of articles, columns and even published a book! In the past, I’ve won awards for my writing. I’ve had cover stories on national magazines.
So what’s holding me back? Fears, insecurities. Those negative, critical voices. I can’t get focused enough to follow through. Yet I’m busy all the time and take on too many projects that are such a waste of time. I “allow” myself to get sidetracked instead of “allowing” my creative juices to flow.
I push myself so hard. It’s difficult for me to relax. I hide myself from joy, creativity and don’t take the time for relaxation. I must do the things I “should” be doing first before I allow myself to do the things I really want to do, like writing.
And those critical voices: “You must be perfect. ” “Don’t write anything that might embarrass your family.” “Nobody will read your book.” “You’ll get bad reviews.”
Outwardly, I am a friendly, outgoing person. I am a good citizen. I enjoy speaking to large groups, social events. But I feel like nobody understands me. Who can I trust? I have experienced success by society’s standards. I have hidden myself with worries about “what will people think?” Will they approve of me? Will they criticize me? I have hidden myself and neglected my needs by keeping everybody happy and caring for others’ needs first. It’s exhausting.
I hide behind negative programming fueled by fear-based unhealthy beliefs. I was told “children should fear their parents.” “Children should be seen and not heard.” So naturally I fear authority figures.
For most of my life, I have covered my precious shining light with these layers of “protection.” The mask I created is no longer a protective shield. It’s a brick-walled fortress. It’s as if there are Ninjas guards who are in charge that keep my real self in lockdown. “No one gets out,” they say. “The children are safer inside.” (I had a dream about this image) It’s such a barrier from my authentic self. It takes so much energy to live behind this wall. My “real me” wants out. I am gaining awareness. I realize I do have the option to release myself. How do I find that “sweet spot” somewhere in-between toughness and sensitivity? Or is it a blend of the two?
How can I embrace my sacredness, express myself creatively and be a blessing to my spirit and others when I feel so disconnected?
We narrowed this story down:
Problem Statement:
The research is done and I’m on the threshold of a rough draft of a book project
I can’t complete. (Or, maybe I’m in the waiting room of the lobby of that threshold.)
The Question for the Sidhe card reading:
How can I be receptive to and encourage those loving, nurturing voices of ancient wisdom within me as I write, express myself creatively? What does my authentic voice want to say?
After we worked with the Sidhe cards, I created a powerful tapping routine for Brittany, based on what she wrote here and what came up in her reading. The whole group borrowed benefits from this tapping session. I am sharing it with you below.
If you have ever felt blocked by old critical voices inside (is there anyone who hasn’t??), you can benefit from it too! Use the tapping script as a template, and substitute your own images and thoughts and feelings.
“Letting my authentic voice shine”
Tapping script
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Change this script to fit your own issue.
TAPPING ROUND 1
Even though mostly what I hear are negative critical voices that discourage, criticize and sabotage my efforts, and I know they are the voices of my parents, grandmother and inherited negative energy…I accept myself anyway. I am doing the best I can.
Even though the research is done and I’m on the threshold of a rough draft of a book project I can’t complete, I accept myself anyway, and I wonder if there are other ways to think about this?
TAP THROUGH THE POINTS
I feel I can’t complete this (book).
I hear negative critical voices that discourage me.
I hear negative critical voices that criticize me.
I hear negative critical voices that sabotage my efforts.
They are the voices of my parents.
They are the voices of my grandmother.
They are the voices of inherited negative energy.
I can’t complete _______ (add your own topic).
I feel so stuck and burned out right now.
I haven’t written much in the past decade.
I feel so ashamed.
In the past, I written lots of articles, columns and even published a book!
In the past, I’ve won awards for my writing.
I’ve had cover stories on national magazines.
How did I do it back then?
What is stopping me now?
I want to express myself creatively.
I know I have something meaningful to share.
The research is done.
I’m doing the best that I can.
I’m on the threshold.
Or, maybe I’m in the waiting room of the lobby of that threshold….
TAPPING ROUND 2
Even though fears are holding me back…I accept myself anyway.
Even though insecurities are holding me back…I accept that there is something in me that feels this way.
Even though I can’t get focused enough to follow through…I accept that something in me is trying to protect me by not finishing, not speaking from my true voice.
TAP THROUGH THE POINTS
I’m busy all the time.
I take on too many projects that are such a waste of time.
I “allow” myself to get sidetracked instead of “allowing” my creative juices to flow.
Those negative, critical voices, stopping me, holding me back.
I can’t get focused enough to follow through
I push myself so hard.
It’s difficult for me to relax.
Fears are holding me back
Something in me is trying to protect me by not finishing.
I want to express myself creatively.
I know I have something meaningful to share.
What would happen if I did?
What does my authentic voice want to say?
TAPPING ROUND 3
Even though I hide myself from joy, creativity…I accept myself anyway….I am doing the best I can
Even though I don’t take the time for relaxation, I accept that something in me is trying to accomplish something, and doesn’t know a better way than sabotage yet. I love and accept what is in me that wants me to accomplish something.
Even though I feel must do the things I “should” be doing first before I allow myself to do the things I really want to do, like writing, I accept that there is something in me that is running that behavior, and I know it really wants the best for me.
TAP THROUGH THE POINTS
Those critical voices…
“You must be perfect. ”
“Don’t write anything that might embarrass your family.”
“Nobody will read your book.”
“You’ll get bad reviews.”
Outwardly, I am a friendly, outgoing person.
I am a good citizen.
I enjoy speaking to large groups, social events.
I have experienced success by society’s standards.
But inwardly I feel like nobody understands me.
Who can I trust?
I have hidden myself with worries about “what will people think?”
I have hidden myself in the thought, “Will they approve of me?”
I have hidden myself in the thought, “Will they criticize me? “
I have hidden myself and neglected my needs by keeping everybody happy .
I have hidden myself and neglected my needs by caring for others’ needs first.
It’s exhausting.
I want to restart, start this engine, inhabit my true self, move with my natural flow…
What does my authentic voice want to say?
TAPPING ROUND 4
Even though I hide behind negative programming fueled by fear-based unhealthy beliefs…. I was told “children should fear their parents,”…. “Children should be seen and not heard,” …. I accept myself anyway, and I honor myself for how hard this has been…. Naturally I fear authority figures….What if I saw MYSELF as an authority? What does my deep authentic voice want to say?
Even though for most of my life, I have covered my precious shining light with these layers of “protection,” I know that I deserve better, especially from myself….The mask I created is no longer a protective shield….It’s a brick-walled fortress….I want out!
Even though it’s as if there are Ninja guards who are in charge that keep my real self in lockdown, “No one gets out,” they say…. “The children are safer inside,” they say…I had a dream about this image…. It’s such a barrier from my authentic self. I want out!
TAP THROUGH THE POINTS
It takes so much energy to live behind this wall.
My “real me” wants out.
I am gaining awareness.
I realize I do have the option to release myself.
It is up to me!
Naturally I fear authority figures.
What if I saw MYSELF as an authority?
What does my authentic voice want to say?
How do I find that “sweet spot” somewhere in between toughness and sensitivity?
Or is it a blend of the two?
Maybe it is a place of continually moving, responding, reframing, thanking, deepening, allowing…
I am choosing now to embrace my sacredness.
I am choosing now to express myself creatively.
I am choosing now to be a blessing to my spirit and others.
I am choosing now to disconnect from anyone who drains my energy.
I am choosing to connect with myself, my soul, my source.
I am open to the possibility that my authentic voice has a lot to say!
Tap on back of hand, between last two knuckles
My awareness is increasing.
Things are gradually getting better.
In the past few months, I started questioning what I was doing with my time and life.
I am becoming aware of my fragmentation and disconnection–and the consequences.
My inner wisdom tells me I am lovable and worthy of love.
I want to participate in Soul-nourishing activities.
I have been transitioning.
I am easing myself into a quieter, spiritually-based lifestyle that nurtures my inner self.
I am feeling more connected to myself.
I know the answers are within.
But they are not yet totally accessible.
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TAPPING ROUND 5
Especially because I know it is now time for me to quit hiding from myself….I am my own authority. I can stop pushing myself to exhaustion. I don’t have to start so many projects….I can accept where I am and move forward.
Especially because I know I can escape from the Ninja guards…Now I can guard myself from them!… Or maybe I can give them a new job…they could guard my authentic voice, my precious shining inner light.
Especially because I am free to choose different behaviors that get better results…. I can always begin again…. I am ready for my spirit to soar…. I am grateful for this connection with the Sidhe and the “psychic snapshot” provided by the cards.
Tap on chest
I want to encourage the voices of ancient wisdom within me.
I will be receptive to and encourage the loving, nurturing voices within me as I write.
I am paying attention to what my authentic voice wants to say.
Now we incorporated insights from Brittany’s Sidhe card reading:
TAP THROUGH THE POINTS
There is power in my smallest moments.
A single word or action can set vast changes into motion.
I can have faith in what can unfold.
I don’t even need to know what it will be.
I am curious to find out!
I can call on the spiritual forces of creativity, joy and beauty.
I can trust these forces, they are my spiritual birthright.
I am willing to take a chance.
I am willing to step out in any direction to get energy moving.
When there is movement, I will be able to see what I want .
When there is movement, I will be able to see what I need to do.
When the energy is moving I can influence the outcome.
I can make a choice about my authentic self and path without even clearly seeing my true self or path.
I can feel it.
This threshold can represent the presence of abundance and fertility in my life.
Here is a field to be plowed and seeds to be planted.
The field is rich in the promise of growth.
I have the gift of space and a place to grow.
This is my threshold.
It is my opportunity to find my own way.
It is my opportunity to offer my gift in my own way.
I am speaking in my authentic voice.
I am taking care of myself.
I am making more effort to go for walks in nature.
I am journaling, practicing yoga, spending time in prayer and meditation…
I am using tapping to free myself from this pain.
I know I can find peace within, and there I hear my authentic voice.
My precious shining inner light can shine out through my words.
Now I can write.
A week later, Brittany sent me this:
I am tapping this dialogue daily, and “going deep” with the questions and exercises handouts you provided. Very helpful. So far, I sense energy release, feeling less conflicted, and that my authentic voice is feeling safer to express herself. Still working on getting grounded. lol. I am so grateful for your Sidhe workshop. It really has opened up a new way of accessing creativity. It’s a beginning of a new beginning. And, as you say in your newsletter, I am grateful to be part of this “thoughtful, caring community who are willing to dream big about what is positive and possible for our world.”
Let me know what turns up in your experience of this tapping routine!
With my love and blessing to you,
Rue
