I KNEW my auto-immune illness was due to a traumatic incident in my child that caused me to feel like it would be better to be good. Holding things inside and acting and speaking the way I really felt was absolutely out of the question. No one told me this, it’s just what a 10-year-old little girl did to protect herself. I’m paying the price for it now with my health. Now I know I can overcome this.
Welcome! Glad you found me, and my work with spiritual sensitives. If you don't yet know about EFT, I think you will find it a useful practice of self-blessing.
I can soooo relate to this. I’ve also been led to trauma as an instigator. But interestingly, auto-immune is thought to be, in a sense, “attacking the self”. As you said, ~not being able to act or speak the way I really felt, I tried to mold myself to whatever situation I was in and whomever I was around. I ended up a shell, full of regret, all alone.
Despite giving everything for everyone else, I didn’t have enough left to give to myself. And those around me were just takers, not givers. They’d learned to be that way, just as I’d learned to be the way I was. But when one doesn’t love and truly care for oneself (or even know it’s possible), it seems the body could learn to behave the same way, sacrificing it’s cell-f, working towards being no-thing.
The world seems to teach the opposite of how things are meant to be. Regardless, I must start as if a baby and learn to be there for myself… and my cells. 🙂
I’m so grateful for you and your work, Rue. Much love to you.
Thank you Kimmedawn. :^))